I was seeing a maternal and fetal medicine specialist for my high risk pregnancy and received the worst care at my last visit. I live over an hour from the hospital and was having symptoms of things not going well and asked to be admitted. I knew it was important given my condition that I be close to the hospital. I was 33 weeks and 3 days at that point. The doctors last words to me before I left were “It doesn’t matter anyways. If you’re not on the operating table when your water breaks, your baby will die anyway.” On my way home from the appointment, I started gushing blood. I was transported via ambulance to the nearest hospital. I lost over 80% of my total blood volume and during that 25minute ambulance ride, I had no idea if my baby was alive or not. I had an emergency c-section and both me and my baby almost died. Had I been admitted like I had asked, it would have been far less traumatic. No faith in ther MFM team.